Soar like an Eagle in the midst of a Storm

What you are capable of achieving is heavily based on how much you want it.  When it means enough to you then you can do it.  Figuring out how and when the right time is, is never easy and finding a balance between what you think is the most important thing to you and the reality of what is actually the true realities of life are often blurred and veiled from our eyes.  This is because our eyes can be selfish and self centred and deceitful from reality.  However, when you are willing and committed and persistent you will get yourself there every time.  You can always take a small step in the direction of your dreams.  Because dreams are very big, they require more than a single step, they require many steps and a lot of patience.  They require more than a number of mistakes and failures and they require the one thing that most just cannot commit to - namely persistence.  There is absolutely nothing about your present situation that prevents you from allowing your dreams one step at a time.  Use each setback, each disappointment, as a cue to push on ahead with more determination then ever before.  Don't abandon the good you have in your life and make the effort to remember all the god things that you have experienced and hold them close for the tough steps towards your dream.